Wishing Jack all the best for his recovery. (Image via selfie)

Porn star and former Project Runway fashionista Jack Mackenroth recently told fans he suffered a massive seizure in a hospital following an injury.

Now, he's coming clean about what really happened — and letting people know his plans for the future.

In a Friday-morning Facebook post, Mackenroth, who posted a hitting-rock-bottom selfie from his hospital bed, writes:

The truth is that I haven’t been OK for quite a while. I’m not sure if it really ramped up because of trump or most certainly the COVID isolation but I have been self-medicating for a long time. Up until this week, I can’t remember a time when I didn’t go to sleep without some sort of pill—usually abusing them.

 

Getting into the dynamics of his failed relationship with Christopher Ellsworth aka Dolf Dietrich, which sounds like it was a toxic nightmare as it ended, he writes:

 

Near the end of my relationship with Christopher Ellsworth I started using meth again and taking large amounts of pills to come down. During and after our very messy break up I was f-ed up most of the time and not in my right mind. Drugs are no excuse for behavior as there were a litany of bad decisions that got me there. The last few weeks we were together I lied, I stole and damaged his property, I made him feel unsafe. For that I am deeply sorry. This was in the weeks leading up to my crash and burn.

 

He goes on:

 

After we broke up I went into a deep shame spiral. My drug use increased exponentially and therefore I needed even more downers to allow me to come down and sleep. This leads to the actual reason for my hospitalization in my post above. I can no longer control my anxiety or sleep without depressants. I didn’t have my regular pills like Xanax or Clonazepam so my only option was alcohol (which I actually hate) but it was better than being in my own head.

 

Explaining his current health crisis, he writes:

 

I was probably drinking for almost a week straight from morning to night sleeping or passing out whenever I could until my mind and body just said “no” and I staggered to ask my room mate to call 911. This lead to a rapid detox in the hospital which was the cause of my seizure. It was scary as hell. I can’t live like this anymore and I need help.

 

On the bright side, Jack knows he needs help:

 

I plan to enter an inpatient rehab facility as soon as I am able and hopefully get my life back.

Again I am DEEPLY sorry for anyone I have hurt or disappointed in any way. I take full responsibility for my actions and will work to make reparations to anyone I have affected negatively. I have completely surrendered to my addictions and I’m mortified, humbled, ashamed and depressed. I’m hopeful for the future living sober and with rigorous honestly.

 

 

Wishing Jack all the best of luck as he gets his life back together.